dreams

I rarely remember my dreams, but sometimes a sensation from one will come to me during the day. I remember vividly a dream I had about my dog Roxanne after she died in 2007. I was looking out my bedroom window and saw her just walking down the street. She stopped to look back and I called out to her but for some reason I knew she was okay so I didn't rush outside. She kept walking. This was symbolic to me at the time. It's said that our loved ones or pets sometimes visit us in our dreams, and that thought is comforting to me.

This morning all I can recall is a flood, water everywhere, being in a boat, and holding a puppy. At some point I wasn't holding her and had to swim underwater to retrieve her and hold her up so she could breathe. I don't remember feeling in a panic, I was calm, as if I knew I couldn't save her. Sometimes you have to let go. And yes, it still makes me sad, but maybe that's the message.